Youre not alone….there is more to this, I know
that awkward moment when none of your clothes fit because youve lost so much weight from cancer attackin your body and you have to go straight from the hospital to a viewing and then back to the hospital and then to bury your best friend the next mornin….tomorrow and saturday are just goin to be great….
this just keeps gettin so much better
fuck everything
last night we lost our best friend….
but I didnt just lose my best friend. I lost the person I have known longer than any of my other friends. we had been friends since we were 5. that is 19 years of bein there for eachother
I lost the person who was more of a brother to me then my own little brother is or ever will be. the person who had my back no matter what was happenin or how wrong I was
he was the person who put everyone else before himself and defended the shit out of every single person in our group of friends, regardless of whether or no we were right or wrong
he was the least selfish person Ive ever known
I lost the person who made sure my family stuck together when things got tough. the person who stuck me and my sisters sides every minute of everyday after mom died and made sure everything was taken care of
he was the person who defended one of the most important people us and made sure she got what deserved and the people who abused her got even more of what they deserved
spencer saved all of our lives at some point, in some way. and now he is gone.
who is goin to hold us all together now??
RIP spenc. love you forever man….but I will never understand this
never been in a situation where Ive had so much trouble figurin out what words to say….
think Ill just stay silent for a while longer. maybe once this all sets in things will be a little more clear. but probly not
